UPDATING!!!!!:P
today is saturday ..i'd taken my time to wake up from a very lovely beauty sleep!
well now let's see what's been happenin in my life lately? no thunderstorms.. so it's quite peaceful:P SUNDAY: went to church, in reach den went to lunch with Mich, Rach, Eve, David, Ona, Jason. hehe HAD GREAT FUN tokin with dem making fun of the msian idols n talking CACAT sentences...PIONEERED BY ONA :P she's the president of the UPSIDE-DOWN TALKING club... i had practice with Bryan, wee liem, Aud, Albert:) was COOL..reli enjoyed myself but was tired by the time i got back..LONG DAY!
MONDAY: study lor, engineer n society paper. TAMUS sed i had a whtie face? wow i tot i looked "HANGUS" most of da time but nvm..:P thanks for saying i'm fair,.. hahah i prefer to take it in a positive manner.anyway i was oake coz i was down with flu. slept a lot bet sun to wed. tahnk God i kud go thru with 2 papers, 1 on mon n 1 on tues. made some stupid mistakes on monday paper n wow like ay-chel sed for digi comm paper.. IT WAS JUST FABULOUS U NOE???!:P so ntutin much lor.
TUESDAY: had paper study stduy study.. go test..go CF watched TRIBULATION. kinda noe already what was portayed in da movie. but iguess when we ARE in dat situation it'd be harder den it looks.. TO STAND UP N DIE FOR UR FAITH. we'll see? won't we? we're alerady in the last days nywya... it won't b long.
WEDNESDAY : go class...STONED... came back... STONED...missed my last calss of the day was gettin my beauty sleep with ay-chel..:P HAHAH GOOD MAN! just sleep oni neva even set alarm... hahah anyway we woke up at 8pm! den ay-chel n everyone else went cg. I watched DIRTY DANCING... MAN! i dn care when i shift to USJ in future i WANNA TAKE DANCE LESSONS!! COME ON GALS! WHO"S WITH ME!!?!!?!?!?? LET"S GO! :)
THURSDAY: go class ..go actstream. just to realise der's no P&W for dat week. IT WAS NEXT WEEK.. ok anyway. PS sandra sed she's gonna address some important issues bout r/ships n stuff...sometimes i think to myself why does r/ship suck so bad? in every area of our lives i notice everyone just HAVE TO HAVE some sucky issues... for me, its parents blabla... its so hard when 2 ppl wanna get 2geder or 1 wanna get 2geder n the otehr dun... der's so many obstacles.. IT just makes u wanna die.. n i reli often think if God would jus tell us who He has planned for us ..der won't be so many probs.. den again.GOD always likes to giv us a choice. i've been thinking for these past few weeks.
i dunno n oredi the stds in church is so high. i dun think it's wrong. but in a way i think it's reli pressurising. IT's GOOD to set GOd's Stds but to me sometimes i feel it influences my decisions too much. man honestly i feel like just being single right now cos of so many things that i've heard n so many thing's dat's happened.. the way ppl look at u if u're in a r/ship. like u're sinning or sumtin. ok maybe i'm paranoid but dat's the way i feel. coz the saying goes or so someone sed: shudn't get 2geder unless u sure u're gonna get married. or like why da heck u wanna get attached so early? can u hold up sex til u're married den? ok i noe all these are kinda harsh but some way or another my ears have heard these words. n i dun mind sharing with all of u... my frens. so many areas to settle.. IT JUST SUCKS. i look at ppl around me.. single oso got problem, double oso got problem. WHY? man.. i dunno... where did we go wrong? i dunno... maybe ppl look at me now they think... oooh how wonderful, she ain't got no problems. a peaceful r/ship.. but no one noes what's in my heart... day n night i'm battling the tot of whether i'm doni the right thing or not? to bein the center of God's will.. sometimes i do feel GOd doesn't condemn me, but ppl do... in this area. i reli feel like i'm sinning just by having a bf at this point in my life. id unno how to describe my feelings. but maybe some of u out der u'd ustd. anyways i'll leave things to God. LORD< U TAKE CHARGE. BE MY LORD.
time to go ..i've spoken too much.. better go b4 someone kills me...:) anyawys i'm fine.. gosh i din even noe i felt so many things til i blogged it out. to u ppl out der, sngle or double, i oni pray dat u noe ur decisions r bet u n GOD. dun let others condemn u or influence u.
4 Comments:
right you are.:). as long as it's right by your own principles and by God. other ppl may judge - but they only noe so much, no? ;)
relationships - to rush into it, to go wif the flow, to wait..? - well, i guess there're too many things we don't noe at the moment. will there actually be a time we will know fer shure? hehe, sometimes i feel like there're too many outside influences too dat kinda blurs and konfewses our natural instincts, and then we become a product of someone else's views and opinions.. when actually we're all different and unique individuals - and our experiences are different;we react differently. Our safest bet is to trust God and His timing, something i noe i personally need to realise time and again ;). it's good dat you're thinking, tho... :) i wish you love, peace and joy owez. *hugz*
darling....just wanted to say, hang in there...sorry i wasn't sensitive enough to see what u've been going thru. guess i've been too caught up in my own problems. sorriiee... MUAKS*
but i know one thing. u love God, n u wanna make decisions based on what He knows is right n good for u. so don't worry bout it. just trust Him to lead u. He will never leave u nor forsake u. He will definitely bring u through all this doubt n uncertainty in ur life.
Hmmmmm... God made us in such a way that makes us need one another... be it with parents or gf or bf or whutever F... hahahha... okay that was a crude joke...
Anyways... half the time the lessons about the life that we go through is learning to live with one another... It's just that some of us are faster learners and some of us slower.... some of us give up and some of us persevere... some of us get it easy and some of us gets it hard... But we must always remember that whutever happens... and however things happen... Our Big Daddy up in heaven is always for us and with us and will always be within us.... Even when we feel alone... or trapped or troubled... we Christians can be sure that somebody has already made a bridge... and a connection that was broken a long time ago... to Our Big Daddy.. who wouldn't hesitate in moving the sun, or mountains, or seas... just because it disturbs us...:).... Isn't that worth knowing..?
Mich, thanks:) just wanna say dat what u said is so true. n i hate to face it, but i look around most of da time we are so bothered by wat ppl think n say bout us. n another thing is like even if we can choose to ignore others opinions bout us we still dunno what is rigth for us! somtimes even tho we ask God we 're still uncertain. i guess we just need to fall back n rest in Him. when everything else fails, we can just depend on him for support. i noe u're goin thru tough times of ur own. i'm here for u too!.we learn together k? kekek :)
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