.......It's A DiseaSE!

U noe.. i reli think loneliness is a disease
Coz for this past week
everyone's been so busy
n i'm always left alone like some dungu
hahaha... n it makes me ponder on lotsa stuff
n i realise why i'm feelin funny inside
a feeling i can't reli describe
weird...sad but not reli
upset but not reli
angry but not reli
coz der's nothing to reli feel sad, lonely, angry or upset about
maybe i'm just paranoid
but later this mornin
i discovered sumtin
i kinda noe what i'm feelin now
its' a feeling of disatisfaction
of how i've run my life
things i've done
words i've spoken
thoughts i've dwelled upon
things that i see
stuff dat i hear
i feel like i'm somehow not living up
especially to how God wans me to
but I dunno how to fix dat
maybe i shud join more activities
do more work?
but i dun think da'ts the solution
coz i reli anan live life to the fullest
and at this point of my life
i reli thank God for sooo many things He's blessed me with
But i reli feel like i shud've released an album bynow
not to say i'm reli so great to release one
but i have the desire to reli make it big for Him
be the 1st Malaysian Jaci or Rachael u noe
COntemporary Christian music
But i feel weak
No motivation
I wanna achieve so many things
but i dunno how to
somebody help me plz?
Dear Lord.. I feel... Lost
help me...
I wanna dance... i feel like joining a dance academy
i feel like i wanna act... like footstool players(great inspiration)
I feel like i wanna compose..
of coz i do all those stuff but oni to a certain extend
i reli wanna do something dat reli works...
a big impact
touch lives
life changing
i want me to be...
someone who's used by God
to do His will
to help His ppl
I wan to
I wan to
I wan to
So many things
SO little time
Lord? U der?