TOTALLY MALAYSIAN ENTRY --PCK STYLE

Esther: hello..how're u today?
ehter: okla, y u so busybody?
Esther: y u so like dat? kan cheong u oni ma..ish
ehter: sigh... wanted to go c@p...missed it again for the 3rd time..
coz got wedding rehearsal lor..
Esther: oh u gettin married izit? say earlier la..
ehter: nola doink not me...:Psomeone else la...
muahahha..i sot dy...hols has been crazy... n i reli reli wanted to go for
christmas at the park today.. missed it again..SIGH!!!
Let's see how my hols has been.....
From Cyber to Kelana Jaya...
den to singapore--*BOON TONG KEE CHICKEN RICE, Jap food,
chinese BUFFET, TEo Chew porridge
from spore to ipoh--*MING court DIM SUM..
stop at Bidor for herbal duck noodles...YUMMY!...
stay at HOTEL SYUEN..
to alor setar--*pizza, home cooked THAI food, SUET KAP(FROG's SAliva=P)
to penang--*restaurant GU WU--tried 5 bucks per dish quite kewl idea
back to alor setar
back to KL......hmm... it's been an EATIN trip...
plzplzplz dun say i'm fat when i get back k?
sigh... miss all me fwens... so funny.. when i'm free
i complain too free...sien..nothing to do...
when busy...complain busy pulak...
heheheh...tmr goin SHOPPING pulak!!!>>>YAHOO!

Mixture Of EmoTions...

Hurt
Discouraged
Un-loved
Played out
Betrayed
Frustrated
in Denial
so many other things dat i feel
I'm hurt..
i'm bleeding inside
Lord,U der?
Help me...
Can i be more of a less emotional person?
guess not.. dat's who i am.. sensitive
can i feel less hurt?
guess not...I treasure too much
oh God, what's wrong with me?
my last blog was on how friends matter...
they do, dun they?
but i can't take it
it hurts
it does
what am i talkin bout?
whateva
i dun care
FRUSTRATION's takin over
Lord, U der? i'm still here
Why is everything so difficult?
Easy?what's the meaning of dat?
doesnt' make sense to me?
whatever happened to my patience?
where have i been all these time?
where have i gone?
who's betrayin my trust?
who's hurting me?
u noe... n i noe
why do dat?
its my fault isn't it?
i care too much
my mom always tell me not to care
my sis always tells me i'm too nice to ppl
am i?
i love n give
but in doing so
i hurt even more
so what now?
let go?
be someone else?
change my attitude?
STOP caring?
dun give a damn?
why be so nice to ppl
do they even appreciate u?
do they even think of u?
why can't she understand?
do i have to beg her?
'm on my knees
plz?
i'm dying..
dun do this to me
u noe i love him
i do
it hurts
it does
why can't i be happy all the time?
why are things easier for others?
am i being selfish?
i wan to be happy
i'm such an imbecile
stupid
too emotional
no patience
over reacting
temperamental
Lord, U der?
Help me... I'm no good
reflecting NONE of YOU
nono... i'm no good
it hurts..so bad
why? y must dis always happen to me?
i hate this
make it stop... plz?
make it stop!!
STOP!!!