LeaRNiNg To TRusT..

"NOO!!!!DOn't LEt go Of me!!"
"but i have to...i have to let you go ...now"
"PLZPLZ dun... i'm not ready yet.."
"Dun worry, you'll b alright.. i'll still be here"
"I beg you, plz...i'm afraid..i'm losing focus..DON't!"
"no, my Child.. i'm letting you go now... you'll
understand soon enough why I did it.. it's for you"
"WHY!!????NONO, Lord.. dun leave me alone! WHy have
You forsaken me??????noOOOOOo!!"
My scream pierced into the darkness..
Daddy's gone. He let go of my hand.
Cold. Shivers. Emptiness. Loneliness
crept into my soul. Felt like crying.
Tears could not come. Numb. Dumb.
Why? i was flying sooo high, but He had to let me go.
n i FEll.... I FELL SO HARD...too fast....
everything's bleak. It's time. Why? It's time
to let go. It's tough. But it'll b alright?
how do u noe? becoz He is GOd. Learn to trust.
i noe He loves me. but it's hard to completely trust
n rest in Him. I noe He has my best interest at hand
but i.... i can't... WEAK. Human. Fail. Too much to take.
I came into tis emotional mess willingly. Why so dumb?
Dun do it next time. No, ...No more. TRUST..
oh God, i can't do it! TI's too TOUGH! it's impossible!
no , it isn't. He loves you. Trust... trust.. trust.
I noe what i had to do. Tough? Life's full of tough choices.
Why do we even need God if life's easy? if life was a bed
of roses , we don't need Him. da'ts what He's der for.
I need You. It's ok. You can let go. I noe what You're doing.
I noe You're still der. Tis is temporary. It's ok now.
I learn to Trust. I will trust. i dun like it but i will.
I look down the road of my life... n i wanna lookback
n know dat I've obeyed You n i've learnt to let go n to trust.
let go... Yes Lord... i'll try my best.. i'll do it.
But Hold me Lord... Hold me..
i'll b alright... i'll be ok..
it'll be another day, new n different but He's still der..
it'll not be familiar, tough, sux.... but He still cares..
i noe.. i noe... trust trust... i wil i will

AMAZED AGAIN....

this year's Cyber Christmas has reli been a blast.
EVerything was sucky, unprepared, lotsa frustrations
discouragements, disappointments, fiery darts
thrown and attacks from the devil,the worst
that i've seen than the past 2 years....
Eveyrone was tensed, stressed,uptight,freaking out,
depressed.... i tot dat this yea'rs Cyber Christmas
would be a flop... but instead...He has amazed me again.
He has proven to be a faithful God... always, always
and always. I was sick again with fever, flu and cough...
i realised dat everytime i've to sing for Cyber Christmas
or worship lead i'd always be down with fever or cough..
but He dat is in me is greater than he dat is in the world.
and so like the past cyber christmases, He has healed me again
just right on time... 2 years ago, i was main cast and acting
and i had to sing... but i was coughing so badly... right before
i went up on stage, i almost coughed my lungs out.. but miraculously
and thanks to all around me who reli prayed so hard... i managed
to go thru the whole play without coughing even once on stage
and i could even SING! it's AMAZING...
no one would believe me if i said dat this isn't true..
so this year, i had so much faith...altho i was down just a few days
b4 cyber christmas... i knew my daddy in heaven would rescue me
in time.. n He did it again...
Praise be to His name... He's awesome..
this one's for You, Daddy... n I love you...
as i think again of all the wonders he's done for me and those
around me... i tear... becoz i noe He's truly good... Amen..

Amazing Wonder

What would it be like
If i never knew You?
What would I become
If You never touched me?
What would life be
If Your love's not here?
What would it mean
if i lived without You?

With all that i am
With all that i have
I wanna declare
I wanna tell the world
how can i keep it in?
how can i hide it?
it's clear
it's all over me
the love, the grace
the mercy You've poured

Ever faithful, ever loving
you were always der
It hurts me to think
I can still hurt You Lord
tho i say i love you
but i still make mistakes
So help me Lord
As i journey on with You
as I cling on to You
help me to not fail You

No one can ever compare
No one could ever mean more to me
No one could ever make me give You up
I love you, I love you
Coz You first loved me

No, no , no
i shall stop wondering
because I can't imagine life without You
No, never...
i would die if i dun have You
The reason I'm alive
The reason I love
The reason i'm here
Again, Lord
You have amazed me...