The Truth Shall Set You Free...

I feel like i'm a whole lot older,
Feel like i know a lot more,
Experienced a lot more,
Realized a lot more;

Singing words dat's never been so real,
i reli mean what i sing now,
when i say,'HE is ALL I need'

I used to say dat a lot,
Jesus,You are all I need,
But do i mean it?
No, i guess i din

I was struggling,
I dare say I questioned Him,
I demanded to know why He allowed me to get hurt,
I pitied myself, oh poor me,
how can so many bad things happen to me

Now i know,
He is a jealous God,
He wants me for Himself =),
My attention was too divided,
I loved him more,
I loved Him less

I thought i was a faithful daughter,
but i was double minded in all my ways,
always disappointing my Daddy,
i gave some,
i withheld some,
i din give my all,
but He demanded my all

Den i remembered Matt 10:37
"He who loves father or mother more than Me
is NOT worthy of Me...."
Ashamed, i found myself guilty

I was blind but now I see,
Something so simple,
How could I miss,

He is the lover of my soul,
Most beautiful Saviour,
Precious Redeemer,
My Love...

Disillusioned Part 2

THIS-->

I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

USHER - BURN

OR THIS-->

Packing my bags this morning
Was the hardest thing to do.
But packing my bags was so easy
Compared to standing outside your door
Right now to say goodbye to you.

Think of me.
I know youve never seen me cry.
Think of me.
But its so hard to say goodbye.
Think of me.
What can I say to show you
Ill never give up on you,
I will be waiting for you?

I will be there when you call.
I will see you through it all;
And even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground.

I know that it feels like leavin
Is a part of letting go.
But Im prayin with hope and believin
That Ill see you once again down this road...
I hope that it wont be long!

Think of me.
I know God brought you as a friend.
Think of me.
I know He'll bring you back again!
Think of me.
What can I say to show you
Ill never give up on you,
I will be waiting for you?

I will be there when you call.
I will see you through it all;
And even in your darkest hour,
I pray that the Lord we found
Will set you on solid ground.

Mark Schultz feat Rachael Lampa - Think of me

So, disillusioned is a STATE of being CONFUSED right? like sometimes u like black but den u like white pulak... but right now I like the 1st song..*wink*
lallalalal~~~~

Disillusioned...

Do i really want this?
How bad do i need it?
Is it just a matter of the period of time?
How long it has been?
Could this be what I really feel?
No factors, no circumstance, no influence
Just me n my heart?
I can't hear my heart..
Too much noise... too many voices in my head
Distractions... Loss of focus...
Can i survive without it?
Have I really crucified myself?
Denied my flesh?
Do i want what He wants?
Am I pleasing Him?
Do i suffer lack coz of my own desires?
Will i die without it?
Will i be less happy if i dun have it?
Will i be aimless and heading nowhere because of it?
Is it even lack at all?
How do u define loss?
pain and suffering?
missing it?
wishing i have it?
hoping one day i will eventually possess it?
will i???
have i???
do i???
need i???