Daddy Kay 3rd two BeatRice....

okla okla.. i noe the title is a big 'L':p
i forgot to talk bout my trip to Bea's house!
followed ken to ipoh, together in the car
was bebe, arwen n Bea.... we started off our
jrny after saturday's talk from Ps Kenneth.
den Ken had to stop to change his pants.
sayin sumtin bout sumtin cant breath..
dunno what the heck dat means * innocent look*
*ladidaaaalalalal~~~* n den yes arwen sayin
sumtin bout LUCKY HIM both girls were usin his
shoulders as pillow...*wink wink* errrrr dunno
if dat's true but he claims so.. n i oni remember
me tryin to keep my head on th opposite side!
Reach ipoh... slept most of the way can hear
bebe n ken tokin dunno wat la.... soomuch to say
heheh n they say GIRLS TOK A LOT!:P
den wego dinner... YUMMY !!FAMOUS IPOH
NGA CHOY KAI HOR FUN! GOSHhhhhh heaven....
was fascinated byt eh pictures put up
..showing famous film stars from hong kong,
taiwan actually were where we were...
they all ate der!! wow! gosh we just call oni
DONKEH! call meatballs,fishballs, whatrva chiekn
inner disgustin parts, soup, breansprouts n chicken!
it was deliiiiicious. den went back to Bea's house!
its gorgeous.. n her parents were lovely ppl!
kept feeding me.. durian la, home made cake la.
packed me some nice sausages n bacon with bread!
.... mangaed to tok to Bea heart to heart talk!
lovely!!!! heheh i thank God for all the lovely
wonderful girlfrens i have around me...:)
good frens are hard to come by n i reli
appreciate dem.:) anway BEA this page's for u!
muaks.. thanks so mcuh for everythin u've done
for me.. been real nice n taken good care of me
on my short stay at ur place... *GRIN*
cya back in cyber!

HOls are Gonee gonee goneee...

jsut got back to cyber just now by flight.. i've been real notty...
supposed to come back by bus but i was too freakin lazy ...:p
hmm been a real blast this hols.

but the past few days, later in the week was a bit hard for me to swallow.. hahah n its' not even the time of the month. I did wonder whats'rong wtih me? i managed to let out my feelings a lil bit just now.. i feeel much better now... waht i meant was i was feelin reli depressed n sien n bored n annoyed :P wahtever,,, anyways important thing is i'm better now. thrusday night n fri nite were sleepless nights for me.Imagine dat?!! n i'm a pig!! just thiking bout lotsa stuff.. keep goin thru my mind
eg : my future, tests, my future partner, my family, God, thinsg i did , things i'm gonna do, my new house, financial stuff, loans (how to settle)...my loved ones who're not saved yet, my friends, my housemates... now der's a lonnnnnnnnnnnggg list.. i dunno y i'ts all just spinning in my head...

heheh guess i aws too free huh? read rach n liem's blog somehow WISHED I HAD GONE TO MALACCA TOO....:P mmm gosh i hafta go ona's hse one day too! but a funny feeling crept up when i was back with my family durin the hols. felt like i loved dem so much i actually cried when i got bac to cyber.. i'm teelin u sumtin seriously wrong wtih me! all of a sudden i feel so disappointed with myself ..all those times i've argued with my mom ...sumtimes i raised my voice when i shudn't have.. stuff like dat.
sudenly realised they've sacrificed so much for me n i dun treat them good enuff..
soo...:) can't wait for them to move to USJ ..i'tll be just wonderful to feel at home again... hahah this time MUCH NEARER TO CYBER!

SUMMARY OF THE HOLS: i think i got a real headache n started getting reli depressed when i started to study digi comm... ireli havent much patience since den!GOSH! U HAVE NOE IDEA HOW DEPRESSIN! i feel like i wanna bite someone's head off!
n i tension lor.. coz i got 2 papers ..ahhh what the heck... just do it n get on with life;) i watched a couple of good movies, one on father n daughter r/ship, another mother nn daughter....one stupid horror movie, one cool sexy chick movie n some others plus LOTSA MTVs and LOTSA SITCOMS n EPISODES.... i'mma tv freak... N I ATE N ATE N ATE like nobody's business... ALL THE GOOD FOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDD OH THANK GOD FOR MY MOM N GRANDMA>>;) heavenly food... sooooooooo seldom i get to eat even a piece of PRAWN MEAT in cyber... it was heaven for me when i got back... n my mom was especially nice to me
this hols. she kept pamperin me with all kinds of food..making sure i'm well nourished:P partly my fault i kept giving her my pitiful look dat i was malnourished in cyber! i guess dat's it... problems in my hometown "..." reli boethere me a great deal.
but the way ppl treat each other reli makes u sick to ur stomach... i'm just Askin GOd for grace ...til we all get outta KB... not dat it's not a nice, peaceful place la:P
just sum ppl are crazy der.....(like me, u say? NONOOOOO~~~@!!!)

well i think i'm gonna go take a nap AGAIN. hope u guys had a great holiday too..
muaks... NITENITE!

nuttin to say just....

MY STATEMENT FOR THE DAY : i just wanna see the ppl i love be happy.
PERIOD*

BE FOCUSED or BE CONFUSED????

just got back from cf... Dr Ian shared bout our roles in CF...
one of his points was BE FOCUSED... for some reason i reli saw
BE CONFUSED. n dat's what i jotted down on my notes n jus tot
to myself hmm mayb he's usin revers psychology or sumtin
ya noe... be confused probably is a good thing or sumtin?
wateva ...anyawy it took me bout 15 mins b4 i realised itwas
be focused... honestly... i need prayer... i'mgetting old..:P
*BLEKS*.... RELI THINK BOUT IT.. it's just the letters mixed up
n u get CONFUSED instead of FOCUSED... wow what a revelation..
nitey nites world... i gotta go study for my test tmr...:)
BUBBYE!!!!

weekends' GONE!

hey guys! i'm back from ipoh!!!:) hmm... okla...got so much food..eat until wanna die dy:Pbut it was reli great spending time with my family!! MY GOODNESS my family getting funnier n funnier each day! everyone's geeting more absent minded, tokin nonsense n doing stupid things!!n GUESS WHAT!!?!!?? finally got a house in USJ 11 house number 62.
hmm dun ask me.. i dunno wheer's dat...but i lvoe thse house..:) its' cosy n lovely...
heheh but i can't move in la... how? cyber so far den i got no car.
the weekend was lovely but tiring... fainnly my fren, Natelyne got married to this MIchigan guy, Curtis:) he's soo cute..:) handsome la actually... n she's a lucky devil..
SO CUTE the flower girls n ring bearer walks in to the dinner in a restaurant, NOT throwing flowers btu shooting BUBBLES frmo a BUBBLE GUN!:P
heheh anyways... sigh now back to reality n sucky food!
on my last blog, i asked if anyone can interpret a line quoted directly from my dad..:P
n oni 1 KIND SOUL responded to me:) heheheh this is waht he saysssss!!!

CHECK THIS OUT-->see, in the palace, the shy empress has a nightly fire in her bed chamber made from the plucked quills of porcupines. It is insisted that the porcupine has a natural death before its quills are removed by silver tweezers. The spines of the porcupine are then plaited into perfect spheres that burn with a strange blue light.and eunuchs, sometimes within themselves have some vestigial desire that remains. A pathway between the brain and the loins, too well travelled to be forgotten, like the pain an amputee can feel, a phantom limb. If one of the watching eunuchs perhaps catch a glimpse of breast, or curve of the buttocks revealed, the spark of desire leaps the gap and stirs the eunuch
zher2: opening valves and dormant vessels being flooded with an unwelcomed blood surge, causing tumescence which leads to an instant death. Therefore the intestines are cut to avoid this blood surge.As eunuchs get pretty turned on when looking at the ShyEmpress under the divine blue flame of the porcupines

cool eh? i myself can never cook up such an INTERESTING, INSPIRING story!! beats ROALD DAHL!!! YAY!!!:P HURRAY FOR ZHER!:P

alicia keys... preach it!

Some ppl want it all,
But i don't want nothing at all,
If it ain't you, baby
If i ain't got you, baby
Some ppl want diamond rings,
some just want everything
but everything means nothing
if i ain't got you...

My fav song of the year!:) means a lot doesn't it?
think bout it? whats' most important to u?

*GRIN*

funny how life is soo funny..:P honestly it's so funny how ppl can choose to be sad or to be happy.... true ONE COMMON FACTOR to whether we're happy or sad is ourselves..
but GOd plays a BIG, HUGE part in dat... so we just trust HIm la.. easier isn't it?
no nit to worry so much.. worry so much for waht? no use oso...not like we can grow prettier or sumtin like dat hahah..GOD BLESS U GUYS>> continue to press on la...
LIFE's LIKE DAT>>!!
LINE TO FIGURE OUT FOR THE DAY : " THE EUNUCHS HAFTA CUT OFF THEIR INTESTINES COZ THERE ARE MANY PORCUPINES IN THE PALACE "... my daddeee?:P heheheeh those who noe the answer plz raise ur hand?

Haf u ever thot of how wonderful it is to just hav sumone to lean on no matter what?dat's what God is for..:)

hmmm feels weird... i guess i've been feeling like this the whole night.. not to mention not like myself actually.. i wondered why n i searched within...
stillno answer.. it's seldom dat i feel this way. a feeling dat leaves me numb...
it's like i'm lost...in a way.. i feel empty..not happy nor sad, not worried but slightly anxious.. hahah i think i'm reli turning 21? just said a lil prayer for my best fwen...rach darlin... suddenly afteprayin n talkn to God i felt somuch better..
i suddenly realised i haven't been doing some stuff i 'm supposed to do today... n maybe dat's y i feel weird...now i noe why.....i feel lost coz i feel like i can't ease the pain..even for my loved ones... i guess i tried to search for strength or for sumtin to offer in myself to others around me who're bogged down by problems... but i realise..i dun have it.. oni God does.. dat's y i felt empty... i'm happy but the same time not reli.. i'm sad but at the same time not reli too.. but i've decided sumtin this very day..dat no matter if u decide to be happy u will... doesn't reli matter what the circumstances r like.. i need to be certain of myself.. noe who i am n what i'm doin... den no matter what i'll b happy.. i need to choose the best out of things... i need to be the best i can be.. at least for my frens n my loved ones...
dunno if u gys out der udnerstand what i'm sayin.. but hwat i wanna say is we'r not God n we can't do everything even tho we wan to when we see ppl closest to us hurtin.. but sumtimes even just by putting an arm around dem... makes more difference den u'll ver noe... i'm tired ....dumb 8 am class again tmr... goodnite everyone...GOD bless n may His spirit minister to u ppl out der eevrn as u sleep....

Give la... Give what? nobody gimme back oso, give for what?

imagine 2 scenarios:
1)Imagine urself walkin alone by the road...feel lonely but not to worry cuz u'er catchin up with ur frens later...
2)Imagine urself walkin alone by the roa....feel lonely but empty coz u have no frens to turn to n u'll be walkin like dat for the rest of ur life..
isn't dat sad? yet dat;s what happen to many ppl... n i do wonder... whether i'ts their fault or our fault? like say, if we're not friendly enuff to approach ppl ya noe?
but den again...would it be their fault again dat they just dun wanna open their mouth n just start swearin in their hearts bout others whom they think r not doin their job n thinking dat no one cares? i guess both does have their own faults...
Sis Annette's msg reli spoke to me last night.. honest! i'm sure it blessed many ppl too in CF.. coz honestly if we dun make the newcomers feel welcome, it's kinda like our fault... but it is theirs too if they dun give themselvse a chance to get to noe others..
n many things she said suddenly like hammered on my head n i realised many things i shud've realised b4..she said bout giving 100% n no lookin back? isn't dat hard to do?
hahah personally i'm the kinda person who always dun wanna do sumtin if i get nothing in return...JUAL IKAN MAR>> but GOd asked us to be different.. n in a way i think it'll make me a happier person if i'm like dat.. ya noe? just giving n keep servin nomatter wat oethers do to u... coz OUR REWARD is in heaven... n we always ...always have God to turn to.. we dun hafta worry.. if we do sumtin good n no one praises us, God noes...
i mean.. this world 's all bout status, recognition, popularity, how many ppl like u n stuff... but we hafta remember dat our FAther in heaven holds all the records n He noes if we'd blessed someone today.. Ps Kenneth always said " it is always more blessed to give den to receive... Coz when U R ABLE to give.. u r oredi BLESSED 1st!! if u r not blesed how can u give?" hmm another important point..:P hahah funny how i always wanna start blogging n wanna tok bout sumtin else but always end up talkin bout GOd..:)
but i'm thankful it's dat way.. coz i wouldn't wan it to be any other way..
heheh it happens to Rach too n we're tellin each other ..hahah we're preachin online now.. niways.. gotta go.. catch up with u guys later!!! muaks!