WhoLe as ME!

It's been a year now since i became single...
Time really flies...
And it still amuses me that some ppl stil dunno
dat i'm single now =P(*blur cases!*)

I feel like i'm a changed person now
A better person maybe?
or rather i've discovered myself

It was good when i was in a rship
I felt loved
I felt cared for
It feels good to know der's always sum1
who's always der no matter what happens

When that feeling 1st left
I felt lost
Uncertainty tainted my mind
I was leaning on something
n it was almost as if sum1 took my pillar away
Suddenly i was left with nothing
Everything felt so empty
nostalgia
Everywhere u go,whatever you do or say
something always reminds u of the past
it's inescapable...
pain was indescriable

But i guess i had to go thru all dat
for one reason

I was Esther to the ppl outside
but i din know who i was
i'm not a WHOLe me
just a slice of Esther?

It took a while for me to realise
dat we dun reli need someone else to live
we oni need one person
that's Jesus

If you can sing all those songs dat say
'You're all I need, Jesus...'
den don't come and tell me
you can't give up this person or dat person
coz you know things are not right

i may have learnt it the hard way
but it was worth it
Every BIT of it

Daddy took my hand
Walk me down the narrow road
Told me everything was gonna be okay

It's wonderful to be in a rship
Only after you have FOUND you
and HE has found HIMSELF
or SHE has found HERSELF
know what i mean?

You must know who you are 1st
What you like
What you're living for
Who you love
What is your destiny and dream
You must know all dat 1st
You MUST

Altho loneliness still strike sometimes
of coz =P
but it comforts me to know
I know who i am now
what i wanna do n what i wana accomplish
for myself n Daddy

Fact is, whether you like it or not
when u're with sum1, u will DECIDE
based on the person
Whether you shud do this or dat
Go here or der
Wear dis or dat

So to all the single ppl out der!
Time to RISE UP n grab this chance
BE true to urself
and be who you wanna be
b4 you can be the RIGHT person
for your future partner
=)

I'm lovin' it!!!

Whisper from Daddy...

You said...

You are my Potter
I am the clay
You're moulding me
so take me Daddy, I am willing

You told me
the moulding is not gonna be easy
It's gonna painful
It's okay,as long as You're here
I'll be alright

There's a high calling
and a great destiny
but with it comes a great price
I consider it a privilege
to be able to serve You
Help me never to complain
Give me courage so i can go on

I'm on a high board n about
to dive in
Prepare me so my heart'll be ready

The world map is on my hands
The nations are calling
Take me Daddy
JUst hold my hand n lead me
Let not my heart be afraid
Give me a spirit of zeal and fire
Let Your glory consume me

Preach Your gospel to the lost
Many young people will come to
know You through Your servant
Use me as Your instrument
As You please Father
For I am Yours

Drastic measures of change
is coming
Be my anchor
Be my rock and solid foundation
That i may never waver
and never die

Musical notes coming out of me
Those r Your gifts and talents
that You bestowed upon Your child
Not depending on skills alone
but the Anointing of the Holy Spirit
Use me for Your fame
I give my all
Inspire me to carry on

Be a woman of maximum impact
Therefore i will obey You
No matter the cause
Help me find a way
Strengthen me to follow Your path
The way You have prepared for me

Sacrifices must be made
Help me put You 1st
Above all else will i surrender
To live and die for You

Standing in heaven's courts
Fill my mouth with praise
Only for My Master


I am honoured
To serve You
For i adore You
With all i am
WIth everything that i have
will i give all
To love You endlessly
Love You with delirious passion
and everlasting
More intimate than anyone
Than anything
You are my desire
You are my all
It will kill me
If i don't hear Your voice again
If i don't see You face to face
If I don't feel Your presence anymore

I know YOu are drawing me closer
Calling out to me
These changes have to take place
for You to mould me
Humbly i accept,Daddy
I know all these things happen
SO i can learn
So i can grow
You are preparing me for Your destiny
Here I am, take all of me...
Amen...

A Sea Whirl of Changes

Tide is rising high
Seasons of change over rides me
Waves are crying
Overwhelms me once again

Nothing lasts forever
Nothing in this life is certain
Only One Holds eternity
To Him alone i surrender

Help me hold on
When i'm distraught
Loss of focus
Don't let go of me

Your will be done
I give my all
i bow down in awe
in reverence n wonder
at Your presence
Your love overtakes me...

When i take in my breaths
I suffocate
but you are my air
Living thru me n in me

Lover of my soul...

A Glimpse of Heaven and a Touch of Paradise...

delirious?d:

According to dictionary.com:
Marked by uncontrolled excitement or emotion; ecstatic

Well i'm sure many would've posted
bout their experiences last night...;)
It's time to share my side of the story.

Fyi,last night was the AYA Festival with Delirious?d:
n 1 thing was for sure,
it was awesome beyond words.

Why was it awesome?
To be frank, i knew nuts bout the band.
i only knew a few famous songs which they produced.
DUn even know how many members were in der!
*okay,pls dun stone me!*
but now i know... now i know!

They were truly inspiring.
for 1,Martin Smith's voice...*speechless*
i tot i was in heaven when i heard him sing.
it was well controlled,full of dynamics
awesome,awesome angelic voice.
den again,not worshippin him ..so:P
but i reli was ecstatic when i heard
him sing!!!

i checked their profile n background.
Martin used to write most of the songs.
It inspired me how such simple chords
n melodies can break thru to one's heart
and minister to it.
Most of his songs r simple but der's sumtin
diff bt it. *ANOINTED*
dat's the word.
we can all write songs. but some songs..
just GOT 'IT'! ya know?
and it's only by grace when God inspires
men, den oni songs like dat can b birthed!
n da songs they wrote, i feel,
is sooo.... wonderfully n skillfully written.
the lyrics,the words spoke life
n inspiration into my heart.
it reli did!

it humbled me how the band's been playing
for umpteen years already n they're still
the same ppl,married to the same wives,
still with the same vision dat is
TO GLORIFY GOD with their music
and truly usher ppl into the the
heavenly courts with music dat
they wrote.
THey're still so humble, pure
n true n willing to die
just to proclaim His glory
thru their songs!
They hadn't lost sight of their vision
or forgotten the main REASON
why they've embarked on this journey
in the 1st place.

i want to be like dat.
after 1 million years,
after all's been said n done,
thru tears n joy,
i still wanna be the same child,
running into my Daddy's arms...
always embracing His heartbeat
knowing dat THAT is da reason
why I live, why i'm here on earth
today.

While worshipping with Delirious
last night, i had a closure.
Wel,not reli a closure...more like
a fresh reminder.
I am complete in Him.
I do not need any thing,
or any ONE to fill me.
He has filled my void,
my gap, my hole, my lack.
If only in my lifetime in this world,
i end up an old maid..=P
i still wanna be able to say
HE is MORE den enuff..
Sometimes i feel like i'm so lost,
always wandering,always searching
for something...
but the truth is,
the answer's been der all along.
it's only Him dat i need.
You're all i need.
n u know what?
He truly is.
He TRULY,TRULY is...=)