HurriCane...

Life's like a hurricane,
I am so lost in it,
Feels like i'm going insane,
Bites into me, i'm incomplete

What's the use of fighting?,
I dun even noe what for anymore,
It' s time to feel my heart beating,
Never felt like this before,

Time to STEP OUT from the blur,
See the world from another angle,
Make life worth living, the answer
I've been looking for to savour,
my life in a different manner,
All i ever wanted was a Saviour,
In Him i will trust forever and ever.

"weeks r becoming more n more vague, i hardly have time for myself..:) dreams dat rock have been reli fun. met with malacan frens:) now i noe who they r. busy...RELI BUSY. dead tired. Nites.dear God, give me strength. I need YOu."

 

It's in our hands...

Life is what you want it to be.
U choose it
U live it
U pay for the consequences
U learn from it
U share it..
it's ur CHOICE

CONFUSED...

i remember who,
i know who,
whom i loved,
at that place again,
confused...
i dunno where,
i dunno how,
i run...run...
my legs are too weak,
i fall, i crawl, i faint...
i wake up,
what happened?
things r different,
i call out,
darkness scared me,
fear gripped me,
adrenaline rush,
i grope,
i feel,
NOTHING....
all at once,
came voices,
came noises,
came CONFUSION,
"HELP!!!!"
Somebody pleasee,
help me,
i'm bleeding..
"pick me up!..'
i cry,
tears soak my blouse,
i can't see,
everything's blurry,
my heartbeat's getting softer
dizzy,
i feel sick,
i feel faint,
HELP ME.....
no one der,
HELP ME...
i c a light...
it overwhelmed me...
i fluttered,
i feel..... weak
no strength left...
HOLD me...
i... i'm too vulnerable..
h...ee....ll..pppp...
it ends..
but how?
who noes?
i dun noe,
i dun remember,
lemme recall,
i think i noe,
i remember who,
i know who,
whom i loved,
at that place again,
CONFUSED...

Live my dreams

WHy am I here on earth?
My passion is to sing , to dance
I wanna be a dancer..
Salsa, Meringue, Street Dance anytin
I love MUsic, My heartbeat
Without Songs I die
I love to act
so Many expressions
So many different slangs/accents
So many faces
We can reflect
These are a few of my favorite things
i'm not Julie Andrews
but i"M finding my way
what's my purpose here on earth?
why live if i dun do what i love?
when do i find my direction
my chance
my oppurtunity?
when will it be?
how long do i have to wait?
when will i emerge to be?
who i erli wanna be?
is life worth livin
JUst goin thru the motions
doing what others wan u to do?
where i do begin?
to LIve MY DREAMS
i wanna live my dreams
i noe my identity
but how do i share it with the world?
I wan to
i'll wait
waiting
waiting
waiting......

STOLEN~

isn't amazing how ppl can do such a thing? a girl, an educated person in a uni?
n she din plan on stealin either? in 1 minute, came in , saw n stole.isnt amazin how ppl can be so dumb n careless oso? hahah learnt my lesson well.anyways.. all i wanna say here is PLZ DUN TAKE THINGS FORGRANTED n make sure ur wallet n hp is with u all the time!
anyway WHAT IS IMPORTANT here is not the issue dat my wallet n hp is stolen. I just wanna state my thanks esp to rach, wee liem, gim, chee yong, benny, su yin, nicky n boss n ee chia n other frens who've been supportive n so kind to me. Su yin, u reli reli touched my heart whether or not u read my blog hahaha thank u. THis incident made me realise n i'm so grateful for so many frens who stood by me when i needed dem. den i suddenly felt dat i'm so blessed to have all these wonderful ppl around me to help me. dunno what i'd do without dem.
Everyday i thank God for eevry single one of u. God bless u n i pray dat the Lord will multiply His blessings upon those who helped me n bless u even more abundantly. I 'm leaving everything into God's hands. I'm counting on Him so i can give a testimony! bubye now ppl i gtg study for tmr's test

~GOD ALLOWS EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!~

UPDATING!!!!!:P

today is saturday ..i'd taken my time to wake up from a very lovely beauty sleep!
well now let's see what's been happenin in my life lately? no thunderstorms.. so it's quite peaceful:P SUNDAY: went to church, in reach den went to lunch with Mich, Rach, Eve, David, Ona, Jason. hehe HAD GREAT FUN tokin with dem making fun of the msian idols n talking CACAT sentences...PIONEERED BY ONA :P she's the president of the UPSIDE-DOWN TALKING club... i had practice with Bryan, wee liem, Aud, Albert:) was COOL..reli enjoyed myself but was tired by the time i got back..LONG DAY!

MONDAY: study lor, engineer n society paper. TAMUS sed i had a whtie face? wow i tot i looked "HANGUS" most of da time but nvm..:P thanks for saying i'm fair,.. hahah i prefer to take it in a positive manner.anyway i was oake coz i was down with flu. slept a lot bet sun to wed. tahnk God i kud go thru with 2 papers, 1 on mon n 1 on tues. made some stupid mistakes on monday paper n wow like ay-chel sed for digi comm paper.. IT WAS JUST FABULOUS U NOE???!:P so ntutin much lor.

TUESDAY: had paper study stduy study.. go test..go CF watched TRIBULATION. kinda noe already what was portayed in da movie. but iguess when we ARE in dat situation it'd be harder den it looks.. TO STAND UP N DIE FOR UR FAITH. we'll see? won't we? we're alerady in the last days nywya... it won't b long.

WEDNESDAY : go class...STONED... came back... STONED...missed my last calss of the day was gettin my beauty sleep with ay-chel..:P HAHAH GOOD MAN! just sleep oni neva even set alarm... hahah anyway we woke up at 8pm! den ay-chel n everyone else went cg. I watched DIRTY DANCING... MAN! i dn care when i shift to USJ in future i WANNA TAKE DANCE LESSONS!! COME ON GALS! WHO"S WITH ME!!?!!?!?!?? LET"S GO! :)

THURSDAY: go class ..go actstream. just to realise der's no P&W for dat week. IT WAS NEXT WEEK.. ok anyway. PS sandra sed she's gonna address some important issues bout r/ships n stuff...sometimes i think to myself why does r/ship suck so bad? in every area of our lives i notice everyone just HAVE TO HAVE some sucky issues... for me, its parents blabla... its so hard when 2 ppl wanna get 2geder or 1 wanna get 2geder n the otehr dun... der's so many obstacles.. IT just makes u wanna die.. n i reli often think if God would jus tell us who He has planned for us ..der won't be so many probs.. den again.GOD always likes to giv us a choice. i've been thinking for these past few weeks.
i dunno n oredi the stds in church is so high. i dun think it's wrong. but in a way i think it's reli pressurising. IT's GOOD to set GOd's Stds but to me sometimes i feel it influences my decisions too much. man honestly i feel like just being single right now cos of so many things that i've heard n so many thing's dat's happened.. the way ppl look at u if u're in a r/ship. like u're sinning or sumtin. ok maybe i'm paranoid but dat's the way i feel. coz the saying goes or so someone sed: shudn't get 2geder unless u sure u're gonna get married. or like why da heck u wanna get attached so early? can u hold up sex til u're married den? ok i noe all these are kinda harsh but some way or another my ears have heard these words. n i dun mind sharing with all of u... my frens. so many areas to settle.. IT JUST SUCKS. i look at ppl around me.. single oso got problem, double oso got problem. WHY? man.. i dunno... where did we go wrong? i dunno... maybe ppl look at me now they think... oooh how wonderful, she ain't got no problems. a peaceful r/ship.. but no one noes what's in my heart... day n night i'm battling the tot of whether i'm doni the right thing or not? to bein the center of God's will.. sometimes i do feel GOd doesn't condemn me, but ppl do... in this area. i reli feel like i'm sinning just by having a bf at this point in my life. id unno how to describe my feelings. but maybe some of u out der u'd ustd. anyways i'll leave things to God. LORD< U TAKE CHARGE. BE MY LORD.

time to go ..i've spoken too much.. better go b4 someone kills me...:) anyawys i'm fine.. gosh i din even noe i felt so many things til i blogged it out. to u ppl out der, sngle or double, i oni pray dat u noe ur decisions r bet u n GOD. dun let others condemn u or influence u.